Friday, December 18, 2009

A Function of Time

Little drops of water make a mighty ocean

A tiny flame can bring down the wildest forest

The biggest mountains do move

Your new born son will become a grown strong man

It’s all a function of time.



What do we have to say about countries publicly at war,

When we kill our own brothers while they sleep!!!

Selfishness is becoming first nature.

Fathers building fortunes with the children's freedom as a foundation.

Not realizing the bill for their expensive choices will be rejected by their graves

While the sons start out life with a deficit as an inheritance.

The ignorance of the poor is the start of their downfall

They sell their rights for a bowl of Instant gratification

(....It never tasted better)

Which turns in their belly’s as the temporary gives way for the permanent

Its all a matter of time



To show his love, he got her a rock bought with his neighbours blood

She shows off his love proudly to every one she meets,
but ow there is blood on her hands, where is the love in that?

They cried out in pain; the earth was them burning up

And I heard the fathers blame God

How quickly we forget that when things go up, they will surely must come down

So we blaze each day up, with our cigs and bigger engines

As we come to the alter to cry, destroying the earth with every step.

Baby girl is playing with her mother’s make up, wants to play happy families to pass time

While her mother looking in her daughter’s mirror, stretches out her face remembering a time when she was young and stress less...

All things will come and pass... it's all a matter of time.



As you ponder these things, the clock still ticks

Every action has a price, for which someone must pay

So open your senses and see,

The weeds will continue to grow, if they are not uprooted

The bath will over flow, if the tap remains on

Those mountains will move, if you keep pushing

You can get to the top, if you don’t stop climbing

It’s all a function of time



Time still will pass, whether or not you make use of it

And the results achieved is a function of time

Jesus is coming back

And we all will account for our actions

Anytime now...



©SweetestRuby 2009

Thursday, December 3, 2009

While we were sleeping

While he was sleeping,
She received the angel 's news
While they were sleeping,
My King was born.
While they were sleeping,
His sweat turned to blood
While we were sleeping,
He died that we may live.

While we were sleeping,
The world got filled with pain and war.
Young men dying,
Family heads cut off.
While we were sleeping,
The enemy crept in
Fed us lies, captured our hearts and stole our joy.
While we are sleeping,
The alarm sounds loud
The King is coming and every knee will bow. 
So get yourself in order
Don't be left behind,
Cause He might just come...
..While you are sleeping

©SweetestRuby 2009

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

My purpose

Sometimes I lay in bed and wonder
What is this life all about
I mean, my schooling, my job, my family, their families
Everythings seems like hard work
I think whats the point of life
It seems like a circle, and am looking for a way out
But the spirit encourages me
and this truth sets me free..

I was created just to Give God the Glory
That's the purpose of my life
It has little to do with what I want do
But to bring him glory in all I do
I was created to worship and adore him
To encourage those around me

He said he knows the plans he has for me
He knows all what Iam going through
Though I can't see further than right now
He has great plans for me

He'll give me hope for tomorrow
Joy for my sorrow
Strength for everything I go through
While I keep worshiping and bringing him the glory

So please don't be discouraged by a lie
that you might have heard.
That you have no purpose
You know the devil never ever could tell the truth

We were created to give God the glory
And he'll make a way for you to get to your destiny
We were made for more than just school or a 9 to 5
or to live a hard life in these harshtimes
or just be a bum in front of your tv set
God can make a way of escape if you keep your eye on him.

Ruby xx

Why do you love me so?

Why do u love me so?
I did nothing to deserve it
How can you love me?
I’m so unworthy.
You birthed me out of love
But I this dark world we live its easy to go astray.
You were always there when I needed a friend
But u know in these endz its lame to be seen around with you
So I would do right at home, and try to fit in whichever way possible outside
Can a man hold water and fire in the palm of his hand and all co-exist together?
I repaid your kindness with insults
To your face I told you lies
At your back, I stole from you
I drank with your enemies and denied you times and times over
I remembered u when I was broke, in need of a quick fix
Then dismissed u once I got what I wanted.
I did things that brought u shame,
That got people asking ‘is that really your kid?’
Fitting in was much different than I thought.
So if I did this lil thing extra, then am really in, and we’d be real friends forever.
So for acceptance, I did it. And before I knew it - I did it all.

Having magic fingers became a skill I quickly acquired, seemed like I had winter’s breath all year round.
To be healthy I dealt with products of red grapes till my pocket ran dry then I met Jackie D and we became great friends. My pops always said exercise was necessary to be healthy, I took up … gymnastics, in fact I was an ubber celebrity.
I’d given all of me but it still wasn’t enough.
In me I saw the true meaning of disgrace, I was its definition personified.

I woke up to see u still by my side
In a hospital ward, what was going on?
I had OD’ on some animal pain relievers
And was rushed is as one. Later I checked out as two.
7 months later, just before my 17th still trying to be sober
my baby was born, but I couldn’t look at her face
I gave her up for a better life
Its not a big deal, it was done to me.
My friends were long gone, n I was all alone.
I didn’t want to be saved
I didn’t feel I deserved it.
I was dirty and used, and that was my purpose
So sin was my home, for so many years.
I sold my soul for ever just to get a light


Then I saw you u again,
All these lies I’d believed for so long
That I was born to be low by the circumstance of my birth
When the truth you’d rained on me all these years,
But I shut my own eyes so I couldn’t see
Why you so pure n perfect
Would have any interest in me, I’ll never know
For my soul was never really mine to sell.
And u saved it and saved my life
Now people don’t understand what I mean
To save a life bout taking a bullet,
So let me enlighten u a little.
I was on my way to hell,
The penalty for my sins was death.
There was no avoidance my debt must be paid.
But You! You! You went down to hell in my place
You received my death, by dying on that cross
You shifted the pain I’d caused, the hurt I felt, the harm I’d done and stuffed them in your wounds.
As your blood flowed it erased my sins from heavens record
My past is no longer mine
For when you soaked me in your blood,
I was like to brand new baby
You birthed me this time in to love
And I know am not from this world, so I can’t fit in.
Now I know you know my thoughts,
But just to be clear am gonna say it out loud
Wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooowhooooooooooooooooo!!!
English has not vocabulerised a word great enough to explain my thanks
Your mercy brought me through, your grace kept me safe
So all that I am is yours
I surrender my all.


 
©SweetestRuby 2009

Best Man

Lord you are the best man i'll ever know
And I thank you cos you love me so
You died on that cross
To restore my life
You'll never leave, cos you're inside of me
You gave your all, that I might have it all
You're making me a golden mainson,
Cos your bride deserves the best

©SweetestRuby 2009

Praising through pain

How did things get this bad?
How did I get here?
How did this pain come to settle and build home in my self
It’s not like I didn’t try to hide it
But it’s beginning to take over
Although I say am in control, the scars are evident
my friends keep offering quick fix solutions I keep rejecting

As I lay my head to sleep I turn it over to you
Asking you taking to take over, I surrender it all.
You said your yoke is easy and your burden is light
That’s what I want Lord
I want to stop fighting and let you work it out
My eyes full of tears shut for in the morning I will have my Joy

The sun rises and as I turn, I feel pains still here
I thought bags would be packed by now
My hope, my prayer, my faith
This pain is too much to bear
Through hope, prayer and faith
I know you hear me, you tell be to keep going
But how can I do your work, when I can’t move
Then I remember you said in all things to give thanks
So am gonna complaining and keep trusting
When peoples see and ask, I tell them to shut up and keep watching
Am a miracle in the making
Not many get to see history made
Am His-Story in real time
So i’ll praise him through my pain
Praise him cos he love me
Praise him cos through my pain he gives me strength
Now I see that weaknesses are unexploited strengths
And ONLY through him are impossibilities possible
Praise him cos he worked my breakthrough
While I was sleeping, he was whipped for my transgressions
While I was sleeping, he died that I might live
While I was sleeping, he said it was finished
While I was sleeping, he conquered the world and beyond
While I was praising, I got set free.

Ruby xx

Some People

Some people live for their fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power
Some people live just to play life’s game
Some people think that the material things
Define what's within
And I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you Jesus
If I ain't got you Jesus
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you Jesus

Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love them
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
No one to share, with no one who truly cares for me

But they just don’t see you give living water
And eternal life that won’t end
And I know that you love me, cos you died on that cross
The world is under your feet, and am the child of the King of kings
So what more could I need, when gain everything just by seeking you
This life is more than just you and me
Waking up each morning following routines
True life begins when you realise its source
God created you in his image to worship and give him glory
Christ died to redeem you from death
He paid with his life that you may live
To fulfil the purpose of your birth on earth and reign with him eternally

some of the lyrics were gotten from Alicia Keys

©SweetestRuby 2009

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Someone was praying for me

Those who knew me then, saw how he brought me from a mighty long way.
Those who see me now, won’t believe when I say I’ve here before.
Like a dog going back to its vomit.
But I know he kept me cos someone was praying for me.
And when troubles came that swept me of my feet,
Though I should have been strong, I fell so quickly
But i'm standing today cos someone spent some time praying for me
My testimonies are so great.
He snatched me from death claws,
wiped away my past,
and gave me new life all cos someone kept praying for me.
So please don’t think your fasting is just starvation,
Or your prayers are in vain,
For the prayers of righteous avail much,
and for those who believe - all things are possible in his name.
He came to my rescue when I didn’t know I needed help,
All cos someone kept praying for me.
So if you have been waiting on God,
don’t give up now cos you can’t see the results.
If you believe He answers prayers,
Then you know your case is settled.
It took a while for me to be truly saved,
But my salvation started the second her knees hit the ground.
Thank God she never stopped praying for me!


©SweetestRuby 2009

Monday, April 20, 2009

Change / Trade it all


Have you ever felt love so bad, it made you hurt?

No not hurt like that, but like made you cry?
Cos the things that you want,
just isn’t good for you
And it doesn't bring out the best, just the worst in you
Yet you can't let it go,
cos your addicted so bad..
like a tap running water, you just can't keep it in

Cos things changed, without permission,
now your getting mad..
'And why won't he stay home!!!
What kind of man is that??'
'To leave his wife and kids to hang with Jackie D...!!
Now he's got spirits mixed and he's gotten so high'
"I'm about to knock him back down,
who does he think he's playing with!!"
See the fun times are over, and he's still playing games
"Well bring the mojo back, isn't that what a man's to do!!??"
'You see me caring for these kids, I haven't been sleeping all day!"
'That's for sure, cos you’re knocked out at night...'

Oh I can't believe he left, what kind of man is that??
A black man that's what...., 
Oh he makes me so mad!!!
If he was here now, I would kick out his ass
After all I’ve done for him
Put in time and weight...
Can't believe he changed on me
I didn't bargain for this!

So am packing out his things,
My baby girl says am pretty...
I haven't heard that in so long,
and I start reminiscing
Wondering why he never said that....bet he says it to Jackie D..
Then I see, I traded my looks just cos I became a Wife.
Didn't think I could handle both,
so I traded in my weaves...
Ain't got time for the salon, so I bought a couple of scarves, 
had to find a place to put them, so I kicked out my heels
see when your heavy you can't keep wearing those, better get some flip flops.
Traded in my figure, just cos my clothes couldn't fit 3 kids....
So I dressed up in your sweats,
even though I would never break a sweat...
"Please man, I ain't got time" I kept saying,  
"cos am cooking all your meals..."
How ironic that is, since you don't eat at home no more..
Cos things changed without my permission, 
now am getting sad :(
Cos I realised, 
I Changed..... without Your permission,
and now that's really bad..

...Guess am a black woman too...




©SweetestRuby 2009

Friday, April 17, 2009

Trust Keeper

He said i was his little princess
He said he'll take care of my every need
He said he'll protect me-
.... from nasty girls and silly boys ; till he found the one he'll give me away to.
He said he'll love me.

You said i was your queen
You said u'll give me all i ever wanted
You said u'll protect me-
.... from pain and hurt; i'd feel them never again
You said u'll love me

I trusted him. I believed him.
But before i was old enough to speak,
He left! He didn't hear my first words would be
'i love u too ....'
Then all his words turned to ash around me
And his promises just never existed
Time and grace where on my side and soon
they turned my pain into praise...

I began to see as though for the first time,
that though he wasn't there
at school shows and PTA meetings,
My Father was there, every step.
He knows my every thought and loves me unconditionally
He had promised to never leave me or forsake me,
And though i never knew it,
He never ever left my side.
He promised to be my Jehovah -Jireh
and i know i've never lacked
When i had a fever and wanted you to hold me
I felt Jehovah-Repheka and He healed all my pain
When i felt alone and couldn't find words to explain why,
Jehovah Shamah was there and He just sat with me

Then it hit me, i had wasted time and effort feeling down
Cos every time i called out ...'Daddy'....
You answered right back ...'I AM here'...
for Jehovah means Father to me.

You said you'll love me..
and yes i gave you my love
even more cos I trusted u. I believed u. 
Held on so tight to your promises,
i didn't notice it turn to ash in my own hands
Then the pain came rushing, banging at my door!!
Not knowing, let them in...
Now the tears you said you'll keep away
have made their bed in mine....

But still somehow i have hope
As my Father picks me up again,
I see that truely he is my strong tower
He would never leave me nor forsake me 
I put my trust in Him, and I have no worries

Now I know i am a Queen
Cos my Father is the King of kings
I know am on top of the world
Cos the earth is His footstool,
and he holds me in His hands.

Ruby Love xx

With Love x

Send me flowers
Send me candy
Send me diamonds
Send me shopping
But, send me nothing 
if you don't send it with Love

Let's go to Paris, the city of love
Let's go to Rome, to find our inner calling
Let's travel the world,  just us hand in hand
But let's not move an inch, if we don't go with Love

I'll follow you out of civilization
I'll follow you inspite of what i see
I'll follow wherever
But this is a.k.a slavery, if i don't follow with Love

I'll wait for you to dream ,
I'll wait till the war is over,
I'll wait even till am grey,
But my waiting would be in vain, if i don't wait with Love 

Ruby Love xx

Compromise

Compromise is a Prison!!
In Christ Jesus there is liberty.

I am going to stop searching for love,
for God who is Love lives in me.

I have spoken so many words,
Yet to him, i have said nothing
Though my thoughts run wild like a circus,
yet with him am like - Ok.. whatever
Whatever to prevent a fight
Whatever to avoid that debate
Whatever just not to talk
Whatever to be left alone..

I feel like there something missing
and if i turn and focus only on YOU
then u'll fill this void and i'll be OK again
Cos YOU love me , YOU want me...

But cos i don't see you, n i see him
I don't see you, but i hear his words...
Even though i know YOUR voice..!!
I listen......
he says he loves me...
he says he wants me...

And though i heard Your voice and know what Your love commands... i follow his.
..... You'll still forgive me right??.......

So after a nice chinese meal,
a beautiful movie with sides..
and some caring words.... he expects more~
More what??? more of me?
No, not my words .. now i don't have to talk?
'No babe' he says ' just act right'..
Is 'NO' not a show of my love?
'u've come this far..m might aswell finish the race'
' u know i love u babe right...'

Now am working out how much my dinner and movie costs...
to figure how much i have to pay back...
seems the maths doesn't add up..!
I hear YOUR voice again, much louder than before..
" I LOVE U.. I DIED FOR YOU.. EVEN WHEN U DIDNT KNOW ME..
MY LOVE IS FREE.. CHOOSE ME"

Compromise is a Prison.
Cos even though you know whats right,
you argue over what's wrong.
Compromise is a time stealer.
It drags you back through mountains you had climbed before.
Compromise shifts focus from God to the situation

It makes u feel ashamed and tells u u can't turn back
It makes you think you can get out by yourself
But you've run out of 'get out of jail free' cards,
and the bail is set.. its Blood.

Ruby Love xxx

So Deep

It's like trying to peek
through a brick window,
It's like drinking up the nile with a straw
It's like a blind-deaf at a football match
No no one can understand the depth of our Love. 

It's like the sun shinning while its raining
It's like having peace in the midst of confusion
It's the smallest things about you that make my day the greatest
No on one can understand the depth of our Love.

Ruby Love xx

My Uncommon

You stretched out your hand -
that i might never walk alone.
You gave me your shoulder-
that i might have rest.
You sent me kind words-
that made me smile 
You showed me safety, like our friendship would never end...

But why? Why u filled me with false hope... ill never understand
Oh yea, u might be a knight in shinning armour, 
but you are not mine.
So y did i allow myself to be turned
into that distressed dasmel?
For i was strong high up in my tower before you...

And now;

...as we all know most good things must come to an end...

Your hand is no where close
Your shoulder so cold with no room
Your words, far from your lips like east from the west

For i was strong high up in my tower 
before you help me down...

And now i see;

How this uncommon one,
led me to an uncommon place
in my hope for uncommon things
I met my uncommon fall
in a very uncommon way to me.

So now as i look back
i see the fault lies with me
for i stretched my hand back out, 
and lent you my ears.

Ruby Love xxx